family?

wtf is that?
having a serious issue.

longtemps

"they'll never get inside/we've got too much to hide."
sometimes i get these urges and these pulls. i greatly hate it when people who are important to me fall off of the universe.

visiting my parents tonight and probably staying with them. oh, what an odd feeling.

i'm probably going to drag a few of my friends from hiding. this is unacceptable.

calzone night

hahahahaha

i like to prey on big fat elephants

www.blackplanet.com/biancantc

haha

you've got this weird hold on me and it's fuckin me up.
hardwood floor nights and too much to drink was never what i was looking for, and it's not what i'm looking for now, but sometimes it plays in my mind for no reason.

you: "i've been busy in the county all week, but when i started drinking i couldn't help but talk to you."
me: "i've been busy not wanting you all week, but when i'm sitting around sometimes i can't help but talk to you."

this is crucially silly because honestly i'm just dwelling on all of my options:)


life update: went to the beach this weekend and parachuted.
1. buckroe: pabbi is fucking stoked, we're all fucking stoked, and then the park ranger informs us on their dog policy. FUCK. At this point we are at a loss for how to fix such a problem.

finallyyyy,
2. first landing: fun for about 2 hours, but only because of the weather. The wind was pelting all of us, the sun rarely came out from behind the clouds, and pabbi was miserable, so we left. We brainstormed and finally decided we'd head back home and try to go to the Randolf pool.

closed.

unsuccessful weekend camping trip #2. good thing i don't give a fuck and can always have fun:)

http://doitforthefame.com/
http://dropular.net/drop/9112/
http://ffffound.com/image/00c326b57d8d7a3152e7283342dcc8693b838bf8

freaking pissed.
freaking broke.
freaking outttttt

vs.

that kind of lovin sends a man to his grave

around this time last year i almost had kidney failure. i'd been to the emergency room, seen doctors, the whole mess, and because the last doctor was the only doctor to figure it out i nearly missed graduation.

my darling aunt was here for the whole ordeal, and she comes back tonight:)

i have nothing at all to write lately.

this is odd.

i have this love for water.

i've always dreamed of parachuting and jumping in water. last year on the eve of my birthday all i dreamed of doing was going to the river. my wish was not granted, but ah well.

today, we're going to the beach and i'm going to fucking fly away.
'i'm higher now than when i ever broke down.'

SAFELY OUT OF SIGHT FROM WHERE I AM!

late to work today
job applying all day.
even resorted to begging mrs. armbrust, my elementary teacher, for a job.
have a shitta errands to run today, which is a fucking bummer.

i fought the law/war

vs.

these ass wipes are like a quarter of a wipe. you're going to be pissed.
really?!? i'm sure i am. they're from the dollar store.

katey and i woke up this morning to be sucked into the vaccuum we call PUPPY MOVIES.
I cannot fucking wait until january. IWANTAPUPPYNOW! :)
I don't know why the hell i get up so early just to have nothing to do. I'm running errands all day. WOOOOOOO

hey does anyone have a lighter?

i probably have one, but at the moment i'm eating.

it's a good morning.

http://xcirclepitx.blogspot.com/2008/07/carrier-one-year-later-2007.html

i hate having to watch you grow up from a distance. i need to make it to Ohio asap.

dreams, forreal?!

in a drunken stooper i headed to bed, after a series of terrible thoughts running through my head i passed out and terrible dreams ensued.

the only one i even vaguely remember involved a very small snake that followed katey and i around. it was a vicisous orange snake that for some reason no one took the time to kill. so, it was a dream literally about everyday life going on but with a snake that wants to bite the shit out of you constantly on your heels.

im wondering what this has to do with the happenings of that night?

baker's crust:

we're always hiring because we're always firing.

that's how i feel after this meeting. scaring us is an incorrect tactic.

fed up.

camping next weekend, and it's going to feel better than good to get the hell out of richmond again.

1202love.

more than stoked about tonight.
i'm going to be falling down.
i'm going to be beligerent.
i'm going to be fucked up^!
i'm going to be crunk as shit.
i'm going to be in need of an ambulance.

i'm gonna fucking party.
pabbi and cory are out of town:)
we get to break all the rulez.

RAWR.

shoulda been me all night.

user friendly.

fuck.

i find it exceptionally

rude when people leave unannounced and without explanation.

my family may be relocating to NC, which really bothers me. I'm really quite unsure how i will handle living in this city without a little bit of their support. Goddammitttttttt, fuck this recession bullshit. I've gotten to the point where i realize that skating by honestly is not so bad. I don't care about having extra money anymore. I just need to eat, have a roof over my head, and supply dranks for my friends. I want to travel and get the fuck out of this black hole, but where would katey and I go? Where the fuck would we feel comfortable for longer than a few days other than richmond?

our fla trip is happening soon. we're just waiting for me to have the money and for kyle to get home from beach week. at one point all of our little brothers weren't answering their phones. I seriously considered driving down there to make sure they were all alright. Finally, the least likely brother, Eric, calls me. I don't answer because I'm in the other room, but it leaves me much less concerned.

Our camping trip is planned for the 14th-16th. Everyone is maybe attending, which is shit. Make up your mindssss:) I'm not sure how this is going to pan out, but it's going to be good even if it ends up being katey, alissa, taylor, kyle, and i.

i'm going to keep writing all day, but i'm going to go spend some quality time with my gbz. this isn't really writing, but most of that stuff i keep hidden anyways.

a sunny day

and it's still cold.
that's a funny thing

http://littleredstring.com/

i thuroughly enjoy this band.

bungalow

in the middle of richmond.

balcony cigs, sweaty damp couches, open windows, pouring sunlight, sweet canned lemonade= perfect summer day.

definately

got my feelings hurt yesterday and this morning.
got called nutz, which is always a bummer.
got the hint, which is duh always another bummer.

i fell asleep on your text last night, which is unfortunate.
i suppose the cycle has begun itself again.

fuckkkkkk.
all i'm saying is i can't fucking wait for this camping trip.
i'm gonna stay fucked the whole time. thank the fucking lord above for whoever came up with all this candy.

ghey family.

parachuted this weekend, which was actually a mistake.

I couldn't believe it went downhill, but there's always that one time your favorite turns sour.

the same 3 people who have been my support system were once again the 3 who helped all night. The roof of my house is so comforting, and i love the time i spend on it with you. i also found that CIGARETTES calmed me down significantly. I want Adam and amber to come so badly, but who knows when they will come visit. I think i'm going to have to plan a trip up there soon.

i wonder what it feels like to be found out. The cheater deleted me from facebook this morning/last night, so I'd be guessing it's embarrassing. I wish that Ashley had told me like she wanted to, but that's always hard. I remember telling Tom Cruise's girlfriend about myself- fucker. Such a bummer when you find out about wasted time too. Ah, well. Thankfully it's so over and done with there's no pain from the awkward situation.

pabbi is getting too big for the bed. my baby is getting all growned up:) counting down until january- we're getting a new babyyy!

cheaters

it's so fun to find that you spent a winter wanting to move in with some stupid dude

WHO WAS CHEATING.

haha- I SHOULDA CHEATED.
i loveeee when lives converge and shit gets spilt.
Valentines day was beautiful, and so is the truth.

yes for staying in clay house and not being stupid enough to pack up any of my shit.
i think i might never eat oatmeal again. SSIIKKEE

mini vaca was amazing, duh.
black and whites coming in a week or so.
looking for a second job, loading up on some 5htp.
bought some clearance twisted and now i'm trying to recreate last thursday.
tequila is in the fridge and the cap is packed.

i need a long vaca no more mini.
im taking a camping trip soon- i need to know who's down.